I was 21 and she was 29
And then I was 29 and she was 21
I was wrong before, I was wrong again
Touch, see, talk
Eat, drink, walk
Travelled far from where I made home
To where it could never be home
A few days
And a lot of years
I stopped then
I stopped now
I felt alone, I was alone
I didn’t realise there is no one who could be home
I will be okay, I will try to be okay
I will not be okay, I will be honest
I was wrong before, I was wrong again
Smile, text, hope
Cry, forget, cope
Learned to take care of myself
And how to take care of her
Some patience
And many mistakes
I lost myself then
I lost myself now
I felt scared, I was scared
I didn’t realise I could know fear like this
I will breathe okay, I will try to breathe okay
I will lose my breath, I will be dead
I was wrong again
First published on 21 November 2024